Chimaira

[! M@ro@mD !]

Rizzo

 

Pull up your car you're home from the night on the town

Could not find anyone to go home with to show off your insecurity

So you put your "I love you face" back on

When you are this way you think you are God

But the people around you are destroyed

Coming home getting off by killing who you love

I hope you end up in a body bag

Walk up to your room to be with your lover

Although they don't share your desire

That night frustrated and intoxicated

You need to leech onto another

When you are this way you think you are God

While the people around you are destroyed

Coming home getting off by killing who you love

I hope you end up in a body bag

Pretend you are the king

One day this will all come back to you

One day your child will be a man

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Sphere

 

Crawling back up from the floor now

I look above me and there you are

I see your smiling face so pure, its gold

Reaching your hand out to touch mine

Perhaps all I needed was your smile

A nice compliment or two

Where were you a few weeks ago?

When I was wanting to die

I felt so worthless

But you saved me

Watching me almost fall under

You were with him I was with her

Wanting each other more then life

A kiss away from being perfect

Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you

All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two

I hate my thoughts now

I'll leave her alone to live in bliss

Your my savior, my dream come true

Why

Trying to figure out a way

I'll lick your wounds, I'll heal your sores

I can never face my past

Not together I felt so sick inside

Death will come very soon

I tear as we drift away

Picture me dead would you cry

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Forced Life

 

Images still in my head of you dead

I wish I could take them away instead

I sit in my room alone and cry over my loss

Will anything ever be the same?

I wish I could imagine you happy

A life of ecstasy that would be good enough to stop the pain that lingers

In my heart I know I would be content

It's your forced life...doesn't it feel the same to you?

I sit and wonder

While you ponder of pathetic items that bring you happiness

Those things that put a smile to your face

Are the things that kill me inside

I know deep down you have a good heart

But why am I never included in all of this?

I take you in...rise you up, yet my soul stays untouched?

Nothing ever changes in your mind

Nothing ever changes

Stick your hate to me

I'll find a way to break free

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Options

 

A slave to my thoughts daily

I finally lost my craving

Need this to end real soon

You come then you go away

No way I can make it through this

Can you feel my heart fade away?

Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out

I'd try but I'm not allowed

Where do I go from here now?

My friends can't explain this to me

When I see you I don't see me

I feel I'll never gain

Your affection is a must to me

But reflections of past life won't let me be

Right now all hope is lost

Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out

I'd try but I'm not allowed

Where do I go from here now?

Save some for me

There's still blood for nine

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Jade

 

Face black another shadow of innocence tainted

Gave back all the lights and glitter

Wrong track again and again is stings

Wish you all could feel like this

12 is for the reason of regret

9 is for the pain that I'm caused

Will strife ever cease? Someday...

###### this mind that is made to hate

Complete the task of humility

Restrained from who they want me to be

That's what they want me to be

That is not quite good enough for me

###### you and your thoughts on me

###### you and your thoughts of me

###### you how can I not be me

###### you I will never let you take me

I will never be that good little one

I can never see what is so good about life

I can never change just who I am or what is I think I am doing

My hands fell down now I know I failed

You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale

Maybe I should just end all this right here

Would you like that?

Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded

I am staying here to betray all of you

Never failing me again

Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?

I'm going to save me

My eyes turn the color jade

I look at everyone around me

I am so sick of this place

Anyone and anything makes me sick

I just want to end it all

I return to my room walls white with black shades

Oh how would red look?

The reasons are not for your ears

The feelings are not for your heart

I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming

Can I find a way out besides this?

I need it

I want to be where you are

I miss you

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4Th Album : This Present Darkness ( 2o0o )

 

 

This Present Darkness

 

In this present darkness

I fall upon broken knees

Crawl through weight depression haunted by and unborn ghost

I'll never know your fears

Never see me in your eyes

Curse the one that stole your name from

Me this is the monster that they create from second of your conception

Minutes leading to death sentence will shackle me and turn eyes red

I will constantly endure the pain of your creation

How can I lie awake grace

How can I lie awake my love

Will stay dead in this present darkness

I fall

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Painting The White To Grey

 

Face I am nothing face

Complete by sarcastic tastes

What a waste I think I'd rather die

Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life

Always situations I can never hide

Crying tears of anger, hate

Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do

Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive"

A desperate cry for something else to justify

I'm in a daze caused by pain

A failing force that wants to change

Painting the white to grey

Numb body shivering

Blood dripping from the skin

Painting the white to grey

Plastic always drastic

A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through the attic

I know somewhere out there someone cares

Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think it's time repair

These scars will never clear

I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day maybe being sane

I might have tried before...but I locked the door

Now I need a reason to unlock it

I'm in a daze caused by pain

A failing force that wants to change

Painting the white to grey

Numb body shivering

Blood dripping from the skin

Painting the white to grey

Cutting and popping

I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping

Lying and crying

I rarely find the relevance in always competing or trying...

I take dying

I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did

Cold

In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried to die

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Divination

 

I always searched for an answer for my convictions

A troubled mind at 15 demonic visions

I saw you rape dand beaten

Who the hell is this monster that surounds my brain

I try to make some sense of this, try to break the mold

Divination

A power I wish I did not have now

I wake with sweat and bood scars of you dad choke

I wake from this nightmare to find it's the truth

Tell me now father what did we do

I'll never understand your actions...never speak to you

Don't try and correct your mistakes never trust in you

Fake ######, fake father die

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Sphere

 

Crawling back up from the floor now

I look above me and there you are

I see your smiling face so pure, its gold

Reaching your hand out to touch mine

Perhaps all I needed was your smile

A nice compliment or two

Where were you a few weeks ago?

When I was wanting to die

I felt so worthless

But you saved me

Watching me almost fall under

You were with him I was with her

Wanting each other more then life

A kiss away from being perfect

Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you

All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two

I hate my thoughts now

I'll leave her alone to live in bliss

Your my savior, my dream come true

Why

Trying to figure out a way

I'll lick your wounds, I'll heal your sores

I can never face my past

Not together I felt so sick inside

Death will come very soon

I tear as we drift away

Picture me dead would you cry

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Lend A Hand

 

You are God's most beautiful creation

From the moment i set my eyes upon you

I knew i wanted to be near

To feel your arms wrap around me

And to share myself with you

Would be nothing but ecstasy

Knowing you will make me whole again(-L)

Then she said No

I cried out to help you

My friend who does nothing

I watched you high i watched you low

Never falling to far

I am glad to have been here

To help you get through her I know i didn't fulfill,

but i helped somehow

I'll take your pain

Create with me

Chim was a way for you to breathe

I hope it was enough

To help you through this war called love

Take our hand

Before you leave

One more time, reaching our dreams

We feel incomplete

I know one day

You'll solve that mystery

And make them feel

The way you did me

Lend a hand, AE

To you my friend

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Empty

 

I thought I knew you

My dream had come true

Look back, don't crack

Your stares are empty now

I am still here I won't crack

It's all coming back

My thoughts of the fading you

Reach through, make you

Mold myself for two

I cry for the bleeding...######

Loss of feeling now I take the pain

So it's all right now I'm still a justified hole in your eyes

A pupil never a master

A crumble of dirt to the land

Take the blood right out of my hands as you

Realize it's your blood

Blood

My eyes see noones empty face

I see a second coming of the land I was born with the fear of love

You made that fear a dream

Goddless

I see me reaching for the sun

Try forever to

Reach the sky

I'm empty

Can't find you I am still here

It's all coming back

My thoughts of the fading you

Reach through, make you

Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...######

Failure

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Silence

 

I am the one breaks all

This misery you call your life

I am the one who will carry you

To an altar of joy

Follow me

Flee from this

Except nothing but the best

I will hide all your pain

Resort to the unknown with

Silence

The way I will keep

Silence From letting you flee

You are the one who changed me

To a quivering mess

You are the one who stopped me

From doing all I can

Now's your time

Let me in Let me in your functioning mind

I will hide all your pain

Resort to the unknown with

Silence

The way I will keep

Silence From letting you flee

I feel your stench

So warm I'm home

Let me stay

And feel you more

I come

All over now

Where do I go from here

Leave me behind

Never again ###### don't even try

Silence your mouths you ######

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Now : Non-Album Songs

 

Fascination Street

 

Oh it's opening time down on fascination street

so let's cut the conversation and get out for a

bit because i feel it all fading and paling and i'm

begging to drag you down with me to kick the

last nail in yeah i like you in that like i like you

to scream but if you open your mouth then i

cant be responsible for quite what goes in or

to care what comes out so just pull on your hair

just pull on your pout and let's move to the beat

like we know that it's over if you slip going

under slip over my shoulder so just pull on your

face just pull on your feet and let's hit opening

time down on fascination street

so pull on your hair pull on your pout cut the

conversation just open your mouth pull on your

face pull on your feet and let's hit opening time

down on fascination street

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Gag

 

After years of endless torture

You try to come back

Likeness of an unwanted child, grow

Simplified case of defamation

You left her bleeding

Thrown out the window

I tried to compete to be the good one

I'll never understand (x3)

What the ###### did we ever do

To make you hate

Remaining scars of an unwanted child, lost

Justified, inebriate

Left me bleeding

Thrown out the window

I tried to compete to be the good one

I'll never understand (x3)

20 years of mind rape brings forth my hate

My hate derived from you, you mother ######

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Refuse To See

 

"One more time I feel my life slip through my finger tips I cry

My eyes bleed with pain...pain!

You never understood how I felt

You always shunned my dammed existing fate

You ran away from...me"

He thought he could not run away I told him pain denies soul Save your life

Refuse to See

"He'll refuse to see

How my life is really going"

It's time to worship but he does not care

Oh at one time he did

"After 600 years it's getting old This godamn trial is done"

You thought you could run and hide

You thought you could rise up

###### you were wrong

Refuse to see

Led to believe that i could gain your respect

"You've never felt the need"

Except at one time

His hands red with blood

Crucified a martyr for my sins

"It didn't work...my soul will soon die like his"

One more day has gone by

No one mourns his passing

The final shot went right through

His pain gone

Crucified all his ways

So many days filled with pain

Crucified all his sorrow

Refused to see!